A Short Update on My Cheating Husband
Hint: It’s still basically the same story repeated over and over. I’m trying not to hate myself for it. Good news is, I’m finally moving forward.
Bad news is, he’s still a manipulative gas-lighter. Isn’t that what everyone says about someone they are breaking up with? He’d likely say that about me. But ask anyone on my side and they’ll tell you the real truth. ;-) What is truth?
I thought I wanted to work it out but it turns out I maybe don’t. It’s been a year at this point and he STILL hasn’t broken up with her. Goddess, this is where I feel like an idiot. Trying not to judge myself.
Pandemic stuff didn’t help, nor did anything in 2020. Fuck 2020 so hard. I hate it. I want it to go to hell so bad. Burn there. Rot. I don’t even believe in hell. lol.
The story before last, was that he was going to visit her one last time in order to break up with her in person. Then, when he didn’t, he came home and said it was because he was waiting for her to get her kids back because she has suicidal ideations and him breaking up with her would obviously increase those. (What a sweet guy!) Then, the next story was that he was going to visit her so he could help her move and that he would definitely do it then.
In the middle of those two things though, he told me the car he’s been borrowing from Leia and her husband, is actually his girlfriend’s. She bought a new one so she has given him this one to use. He still has it. Lies. and more lies. and lies and lies and lies.
We talked tonight. Took a walk in a part of Garden of the Gods that I’ve never been to. It was beautiful. Despite the seriousness and inappropriateness of my timing in our conversation, I snapped a few pics. I will definitely go back there. Probably tomorrow evening. I want to take the kids. To that park and far away from the life we are currently living. It isn’t working out.
